That's What The Warm Feeling Inside Is

Friends, if it were not for my friends I don't know where I would be. They are all amazing. When I can just hang out in the backyard looking for shooting stars, not sleeping, suffer through a terrible movie, drive around, fight with pool sticks, plan a trip to Costa Rica and I'm with my friends theres nothing more I would want, especially if they can deal with your obsession of the color green.

Senior year will be a great year, but extrodinarily difficult at the same time.

Sweet Verde

I remember what is was I forgot, Green.

I had no idea there were green backgrounds.

Alrighty Then

Ummmmm........CRAP!

As It Comes

"Iron rusts from disuse, stagnant water loses its purity, and in cold weather becomes frozen, even so does inaction sap the vigor of the mind" -Leonardo Da Vinci

Never Be Clipped

"No bird soars too high, if he soars with his own wings." -William Blake

Meanwhile In Lancehead's Mind...

The Avalanches - Frontier Psychiatrist

.....or not.

Everybody Yell!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

It's Not Just My Fault

Sometimes you feel like nothing, sometimes you'll never get out of bed, sometimes you won't eat, sometimes you'll have a friend, sometimes you'll hide from sunlight, sometimes you are invincible, and sometimes you are so alone that it seems unbearable, and then there is the lingering pain where it grows day after day until it is too late and the clock unleashes it's final chime.

I'll never understand.

Day 2

It's the end of my second day of vacation. It's okay, nothing really truly exciting. Tomorrow I'm going water tubing which I absolutely love. I love the speed, wind in my face, waves, and the painful crash at the end. There is no service for any of our cell phones, however we do have internet connection, I happen to find that to be a little funny. Today we went to the all you can eat king crab brunch.....I don't want to talk about it. While I have been here I have discovered my addiction to peach pies and all flavors of gold fish, I can't seem to get enough.

I am going to try and sneak away from my family and find a nice spot where I can be alone and have time to think. Wouldn't it be grand to be able to ride away with the wind, just follow the breeze? Well for me it wouldn't because I would be trying to escape from my problems. We need to learn to face our problems, not run away. I hate when I do try to face my problems, but the result leads to only more trouble.

Leaving Today

While I'm on vacation could you all please send me e-mails and update me about your lives and going on's. I won't be able to enjoy my vacation without hearing from you guys.......really.......I won't. Now if I don't respond to any of the e-mails it's because I have no internet connection, but don't let that stop you from sending them in ;)

Fool

I feel like I have been stabbed in the back and ripped apart.

Stapled To My Forehead

I'm not looking to forward for vacation because I am going to be extremely stressed. I don't need a vacation with my family, I need a vacation away from my family.

I have so many thoughts running through my head. I can't decide what to type. I know I want to type something but at the same time I don't. I have written so many thoughts on this post, but I deleted them all.

All I can say is........I just don't know, I don't know what to do. Maybe I'm just confused..........unfortunately that would mean I'm confused about everything. I really don't think is confusion though, it's something else. I suppose it's kind of like I'm standing, but I'm not standing on solid ground, or I feel the wind blowing towards me, but it's actually blowing in the opposite direction. Instead of raining towards the earth it is raining aways.........which would certainly be inconvenient.......hmmm downpour.

Favorite weather: Dark/gloomy, cloudy, light or heavy rain, lightening or thunder depending on my mood, and a cold breeze that chills the spine.

Reality and Imagination.

Lame.

I enjoy the questions:

Whose cruel idea was it for the word "Lisp" so have a "S" in it?
How is it possible to have a Civil War?
What do you do when you see and endangered animal eating and endangered plant?
Don't answer them.

A question I despise:

Is it true that cannibals don't eat clowns because the taste funny?
Answer: That is a stupid STUPID question, that shouldn't even be used as a joke, it's down right awful........disgusting is what it is.

On/Off

Dang musical with music I can all too well relate with.

Humerus, radius, ulna.....don't ask why.

Is it possible to trust.......

I'm not lost...........I'm just stuck with an unlabeled map which also contains no identifiable markings....I guess.

So much more could have been done, could be done, can be done, will be done, and sadly may never be done.

Am I hopeless? Yes, I think so.

Wizard Of Oz Israeli Style

Wizard Of Oz Rap

The pug makes me smile.

Wait A Second

Belle

I...........um......I don't know.

A Spark Of Light

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." - Dale Carnegie

"Consult not your fears but your hopes and dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what is still possible for you to do." -Pope John XXIII

"When the world says, "Give up," hope whispers, "Try it one more time." -Author unknown

"Anyone who thinks the sky is the limit, has limited imagination." -Author unknown

"While there's life, there's hope." -Roman saying

"The greatest test of courage on earth is to bear defeat without losing heart." -Robert Green Ingersoll

Dschinghis Khan Disco Fever

Moskau

I would like to thank my older brother Mike for introducing me to this video.

Dark Room At 11:29

There are times where I wish I could see into the future. Know if things will be okay, what will happen to those I know, and what will happen to me.

What would happen if I just decided to leave the house right now and walk, walk in one direction, where would I end up? I always wonder to myself....can true happiness be found? Have I already encountered it?

I have moments where I hate myself, I hate the way I act, the way I do things, my personality, my appearence, my present mood, but we all have those moments once in a while.

I'm not sure what I am trying to tell myself, I tend to follow my head more than my heart. I ignore what my heart is trying to say and as a result it begins to ache and fall apart.

I am fond of the dark because I can't be seen and I can't see myself, but I also fear the dark because I can't see anyone else.

If I could leave and never come back, I would.

Silly Kate

Wuthering Heights

I very much enjoy "Wuthering Heights" sung by Kate Bush. Nick, I think this video will help cheer us up. She's so funny and I love her facial expressions.

Lancehead and Coachwhip

I'm glad you were able to express your feelings, I only wish you were able to tell me face to face. You wanted to hear what I had to say. I didn't want to tell you because I knew it would hurt you. Either I tell my best friend the truth or lie, which one would you have really wanted?

You do have every right to tell me I'm wrong. If you have a strong feeling about something then follow it, you have every right to be angry at me, hate me if you want to. I am not trying to keep you from happiness and if you think I am than I feel sorry for you.

I want you to know that you will not prove me wrong no matter what happens. If you expect me to change how I feel because of what you said than don't expect anything because my feelings will not change. I am not sorry for what I said, not sorry at all. I respect how you feel and if we are true friends than you should respect how I feel.

I did not try to put you down, I only told you the truth. How could you possibly believe that I would purpously put you down, make you feel miserable, hurt you? I would never try to hurt you. Why would I want to put you down? What would I gain from it? If you think putting you down makes me happy than you're wrong and pretty sick.

You are taking what I said and using it to make me sound like I just want you to be unhappy and feel horrible. Think back, did I try to stop you?, did I threaten to end our friendship if you have this relationship?, NO I DIDN'T!, but you certainly do make it sound like I did.

Best friends do not lie to each other, they tell the truth, they don't purpously put each other down, they listen to what the other has to say, they stand togeather, they never give up, their friendship will never die no matter what, instead their friendship will live on forever. We are more than best friends though, we are brothers.

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow; don't walk behind me, I may not lead; walk beside me, and just be my friend" -Albert Camus