Chainmail

I would very much appreciate it if you guys would stop sending me those horrible chain letter e-mails, they're all the same, and are downright annoying. I know some of the e-mails consist of "you are a good friend" or "where would i be without you" or a sad made up story, but when you are sending them to your friends just so your "wish" will be granted at midnight or your true love will call at a certain time, that is just rather selfish. The only reason your sending an e-mail to me is so you will get what you want, so the e-mails you send me mean nothing, and I don't appreciate it because I know you care more about yourself than others, which is extrodinarily sad. I can deal with no one caring, but think of the others you may be hurting.

Always Know

I wish I could just give happiness to all, let them have what they have always dreamed of. Something more than a gift or a hug. I want to help, but some things can never be achieved no matter how hard I try. It's the same for all of us, we have a least one something rather that holds us back, preventing us from reaching a true smile. I just don't want anyone to ever give up. We must all learn to stay strong, to not break, but continue to build. Hope seems lost, but deep down we know it's there. Hope does not always fall into our laps, there are times we need to climb to the summit to obtain such a feeling.

I will always be there to help, to fight, to stand strong, to catch you when you fall. Though there may be days where I am distant and bitter, but it does not mean I don't care. I would still come to your aid no matter what. You are my friends and if harm ever comes your way, then I will stand in the way and take the bullet.

Emo Carl = Cold Bitter Jerk

Well, I feel better now. I aplogize for posting what I wrote, but I'm not sorry for writing it. It's how I was feeling. However, what I did not mention in the post (which I did not realize until now) was that I am also disgusted with myself, frustrated with myself, annoyed. I was selfish, but I feel like what most of tend to forget is how lucky we are. We all have our problems, ALL OF US. Now, we may not think so, but we all tend to over-dramatize things, not all the time, but often. You don't have to agree with me, but we do. Sometimes it's just difficult to smile and say "hi" everyday. I do love all of you, each one of you has a place in my heart. However, some of the things you guys decide to do are what give me my white hairs, and yet that just makes me love you guys even more.

I want to thank all of you who did not give up on me and showed me how much you care. I'm sorry for being bitter and cold. I know I am distant, but that's the way I am, it's hard for me to express myself. Thankyou for just asking how I was or giving me a hug, it helped a great deal.

Heads Up

Don't be alarmed if I snap at you if you try to talk to me. I hate people at the moment. I'm a bit disgusted with everyone and myself. It's not necessarily hate I guess, but more like a great annoyance and just overall disgust.

Biscuit Has Talent

Aercires Fuzzy Bunny Challenge

Biscuit, I can't get over how wonderful you are.

A Single Leaf

I suppose I need to just take time to remember to breath. Take life day by day as it is. Do what I can. It is a pain and it is hard, but that is how it is. There is so much more, but no. I'm not sure why rain drops soothe my soul...eh I don't know. I want to be away, far away where I can learn more. I want to witness true greatness, and no longer be trapped, tangled in chains. I wish I could understand truth, I wish there was more. Time will eventually tell me when, and I will be ready to go. I hope to finally come across........whatever it may be.

Tired baby cat

This cheered me up after a tough day.

Seal Of Haze

To close your eyes and be alone. Where harm may no longer enter and dreams flouish as wild flowers. Day breaks while night ends. Darkness is no different from light as death is to life. If wings were present blessing the gift to fly, which breeze would we allow to carry us? Would the sun ever be too torrid? Should a heart ever shatter if fallen upon the ground? Whispers graze the ear as pictures are no longer seen, lost has finally been found. Warmth and cold have merged as one. Sleep grows ever deep. Clouds take their form to cast beauty among the mist of trees, allowing pain to no longer reside in the eyes of the sea.

I Miss You Pluto

Poor Pluto

You'll always be a planet to me.