What Needs To Be Known

Isn't it humorous how often we tend to lie to ourselves. We may say we are different, more mature, a better person, but are we really? How do we know if we have really changed, you should know because you know yourself better than anyone. What if there are times where you want to change so badly that you trick yourself that you have, but in reality nothing is different and you are just the same.

If you do try to change yourself, is it for you or for others? The answer to this has to be one or the other, not both. Have you been hurting those around you or have you really been hurting yourself? Why have you been hurting yourself, others, or both?

You're not a bad person for being who you naturally are, how can you possibly change who you naturally are. There are times where you just want to be silly, fun, serious, determined, sad, scared, depressed, friendly, alone, funny, angry, lost. Just because others aren't happy with you doesn't mean you should start feeling like a terrible person and change who you are. You shouldn't be punished or have people be angry at you if you are just not in the mood.

Many of us never mean to harm another and many of us unfortunately do. It is difficult to see the difference between the guilty and the innocent as we all know. Never jump to conclusions.

We have so much difficulty excepting that we are not perfect, you may not think we do, but we do. I believe we try to change others because we want them to be more like who we are which makes us feel like we are closer to being perfect. What gives anyone the right to try and change someone else? Why let others change who you are? Why do we always have to see the faults in others? Why do we let the faults blind us from the good?

I know people are unhappy with me, hate me even for not doing what they want or wanted me to do. But I am my own person and I am not going to change myself just because a few people are dissapointed in me. If I didn't want to go somewhere it's probably because I was stressed, tired, sick, and just needed to collect myself. There are times when I just need some space from others, and I know I am not the only one who feels like that at times.

What's awful is how people don't respect your decision, and instead have to make you feel horrible because you will not do what makes them happy. Sometimes we don't even realize that we are not listening to what others have to say, why they feel the way they do, and it's because we are too busy thinking about ourselves and what we want. Not all of us can just drop previous plans, ignore how we are feeling, or should just have to do everything you want because it will prevent you from being angry at them.

And if you are one of those people who are constantly putting those you are angry at down and making them feel like dirt because they won't do what you want doesn't mean they are going to change for you, they shouldn't change because if you are acting that way it's because you are a selfish little bitch.

Why is it that no matter what we do, there is always at least one person who ends up hurt? And why should you have to suffer every time?

Just don't let people change who you are in order to make themselves and others happy. Change because you want to not because everyone else does, and don't lie to yourself.

And if you are one of those people who are constantly putting those you are angry at down and making them feel like dirt because they won't do what you want doesn't mean they are going to change for you. They shouldn't change because if you are acting that way it's becuase you are a selfish little bitch.

And because I have written this post, I know I am going straight to HELL.

I feel awful now, but I had to get this out because we have all been guilty one time or another.