As The World Revolves....

I feel as if my inner soul is being torn apart. Everything around me feels unstable, but if I look out the window all there is is a gentle breeze, a clear sky, and birds chirping.

Why is it that when life seems so clear and favorable it turns its back on you and makes you feel so incredibly insignificant? Is it a burden to always think of others before yourself no matter what you do? Is it wrong and selfish to put yourself before others? Life is a difficult journey as we all know, but is it ever possible to escape its wrath, dodge one of its many might blows, to take a seperate road untouched by life? I have yet been able to come across an answer. Why do we let ourselves fall into the power of life, to let life make us feel horrible if we don't please someone we love or to not be able to tell someone the truth? We let life hold us back, it restrains us with a heavy monstrous chain which seems impossible to break free of.

Do we control our own destiny or do we let others control it? Is it right for parents to choose what is right and wrong for us, or should we be able to discover what is right and wrong for ourselves? We must always remember we are not the center of the universe. We tend to forget the troubles those around us have, the troubles they must live with day after day. Why is it that when we are stressed and angry we take our anger out on others either phiscally or mentally, and why is it that we feel better after we hurt another? Everyone has reasons for their actions, perhaps it is to help themselves or to help another, mabey the reason was to assure ones self that they will be okay, or by hurting another you're actually saving them.

I feel there is no such thing as perfect but then again there could be, how do we know what is perfect and what is not, is there anything to compare it to? Can the forces of life be fought or must we learn to just accept it, and if we do accept it does that make us weak? Should we let life pull us by the chains it binded us with everytime we try to spread our wings and fly? Should we continue to fight back with all the strength we can muster for what could be an endless battle?

Answers are never for anyone else to decide. Only you can answer your questions,only you can hold yourself back, only you can break the chains and let yourself soar to the horizon of freedom.

You are the only one who can put an end to your troubles, your friends however, can help you along the way.

"Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death." -Anais Nin

-Lancehead